S0, I think in life I have this tool belt that I wear. I have everything that I need in order to get me through all of life's challenges. I have measuring tape to see how much risk is involved in all of life's choices. I have a hammer to really attach something, weather it be perusing a job or goal. I have a knife, because sometimes you just have to cut part of what you are working on off to make it better. I have wrench for when things get a little tough and I need a little extra leverage to pull through. Then I have a few band aids stored in that belt. For those times when the hammer misses the nail, or you miss measure the risk and fall, or in the process of cutting you lose more than you expected.Right now I feel like I am running out of band-aid. Everyone has them in their lives. Weather that band-aid takes the form of shopping or working out or eating, everyone has something that they do to make them feel better when life doesn't quite go according to plan. I guess in my arsenal I have some amazing band-aids that have suited me well for so long. Have allowed me to heal while being covered with something that is comfortable. I have an amazing band-aid of friends. They keep me busy and love on me so well. The thing of it is, at some point I have to be alone, and that band-aid starts to peel off, and that leaves an exposed wound that is embarrassing and hurts. So I grab another band-aid of keeping busy with things to do. I cover up my wound and I keep trucking along. Eventually I get tired of going and running and moving and I just have to stop. When I stop, that band-aid is drenched in the sweat of business and won't stick anymore, leaving me exhausted and exposed yet again. So I scramble for something else, another band-aid to cover this hurt. Could it be facebook and caching up with people? Could it be organizing my workspace or room or car? Could it be driving, anywhere the road will take me? Could it be reading as many books as possible? Could it be finding new music or singing new songs? All of these things are not necessarily bad things , but they don't really heal. They just cover it up for awhile until the band-aid they provide no longer sticks and you are left with what is left of that wound. Eventually you have to face it. You have to take a look at the hurt and figure out what needs to be done with it.
Healing is a process that takes far too long in my opinion. :) The journey that leads you out of that hurt is an amazing journey though. It grows you in ways you never thought was possible. It challenges you to be something more, something different, something exciting and new. To turn the page in your life and embrace a new chapter that is full of excitement and of course it's own challenges too. So, rather than surviving on trying to make band-aids stick, I think it is time to look at the hurt. Face that wound, and let it heal the right way. So that I can take on this new chapter with the strength and courage that it deserves. The passion and drive that will make it an epic adventure. :) Thank you Lord for being the author and perfecter of my faith.
