I feel like I have gotten away from writing since I started my Vlog sight. Its been nice to just expand a bit and try new things with all this social media. I kinda love the creativeness of it all. Being able to express yourself and share you life and journey with people in new and interesting ways. Plus you get to learn a new skill along the way. Heres a Link to the Vlog if you want to check it out. https://www.youtube.com/channel/UChVaORtGqTlhVNp7FJLGl5g
So the past couple weeks there has been this overarching challenge I think for a lot of us. A challenge to step outside ourselves and look at the world from a non self centered perspective. I think in our country we experience the internal battle with this more than others. We are so spoiled and conditioned to feel entitled to everything. For me I am in the middle of a bible study with some guys in my cast that has really been pushing me hard. Pushing me first and foremost into a desire and pursuit of a deep Love relationship with Jesus and second pushing me to live a life of service and Love rather than self-seeking and control. It is rocking my world a bit because it is so hard to walk out.
They just chose people at work for a special project. One that isn't a huge deal but it is something very special and cool to be a part of. Its an honor. Here in lies the issue. Not everyone was chosen. Some were and some were not. There was no longer an even playing field. I think no matter who you are and no matter what kind of job you are in the sting of not being chosen for something is there. Flashback to being the last one picked for the kickball team flash in your mind. Flashbacks of having a huge crush and then realizing that they have chosen to date someone else. Everyone has something. So what do you do when you aren't chosen? And what do you do when you are but your friend isn't? There in lies the challenge I think a lot of us faced recently.
I think my friend Steve said it best. We have an opportunity to be mature adults when we are faced with things like this. An opportunity to show true maturity and true grace. To rejoice with people in the midst of your own morning, and on the flip side to morn with those even when you are rejoicing. It is easy in some instances and so hard in others but that is what we are called to do. Ultimately as Christians we are brothers and sisters. We are journeying together and for an ultimate goal which is to bring glory to God and to server others and show the Love of Jesus to them and to each other. It isn't a game. It isn't the rat race. Our calling isn't for self. Its for others, its for Him.
So the sting of my loss. The bummed out feeling that I wasn't chosen to do something that would have been fun or cool. The inner child that wants to pout and be sad. I have to remember, No matter what I am chosen or not chosen for in this life the only thing that really matters and the thing to remember weather I am rejoicing or morning is this......I am already chosen. I was chosen by a heavenly father who adores me. I was chosen by the King of Kings and I have the opportunity to be a part of what he is doing here. So no matter what. Jesus died for me! He died for you! We don't have to stress the little stuff, and that is so much easier to type right here than to walk out. This is just to serve as a reminder. We Are Worth it! He made us worth it! Just because you don't get everything you want. Just because you don't feel valuable all the time on this earth cannot rob you of your true value.
Today is a good day. Today I have the opportunity to go into work and do what I love to do. My body is tired and I am for some reason or another having a really tough time feeling single and alone lately. But here is what makes the day good in the midst of those feelings. I am dearly loved by Jesus. I am chosen by him and he has plans for my life. I get the opportunity to be sensitive to him and his leading today and go on an adventure of Loving people. No matter my circumstances. No matter where I am on my journey I have that. I am chosen....We are chosen. Love you guys.
